CRAZY EIGHTS! (Stolen from Lori!)

I stole this from Lori's blog!


8 Things I'm Looking Forward To:

1. Going to the beach with the boyfriend next Sunday

2. Starting my career and QUITTING Forever 21.

3. My best friend's wedding

4. My own wedding...in a couple of years..not soon. lol

5. Laying out and reading on beautiful summer days

6. Eating Corn on the cob this summer

7. Going back to Europe (need to make some money first!)

8. Getting out of this town


8 Things I Did Yesterday:

1. Went to work

2. Had a stalker come into work

3. Saw a girl I kind of used to talk to at work and had a really good conversation

4. Got ticked off at my boyfriend

5. Ate dinner with my step dad

6. Opened a savings account for the future.

7. Was on Goodreads for way too long

8. Watched Lost & Fringe


8 Things I Wish I Could Do:

1. Go to Europe again

2. Read instead of going to work..well really I'd rather do anything than go to work.

3. Hang out with my boyfriend more often

4. Move to NYC

5. Go to LA for a few months for school

6. Be more productive

7. Buy a new car

8. get along with my sister


8 Shows I Watch:

1. The OC

2. Gilmore Girls

3. Lost

4. 24

5. Fringe

6. 90210

7. Survivor

8. CSI

April showers bring..SUMMER?

Seriously..did we just bypass Spring here? One day it is rainy and extremely cold and the next day I am melting in 90 degree weather. Not that I am complaining..because I would take the heat any day rather than the cold.

Things are going pretty well. Work is horrible as always. I can't wait until I find a job that I actually enjoy.

I am really, more than ever, feeling so discontent. I think working this job is part of it. I want more out of life. I feel like I'm not getting enough out of it. I'm trying to fulfill these desires by trying new things and doing more of the things that I actually want to do. But the truth is I'm bored..I just honestly want to move to the city with my boyfriend and start my life there for a little while and then see where it goes from there.

Ah. anyways..I'm just trying to take it one day at a time. Live life as much as I can and take advantage of every moment. Wow..all of that sounds so cliche.

As for now..I'm going to bed so I can get up and play tennis with the boyfriend on my day off! That should be a good time! :)

spring.?.are you here? it's me..JAMIE!

Dear Spring,

Thank you making an appearance today. I rather enjoyed our time together this afternoon. I do hope you are planning on staying around for a while. I don't think that I can bear Winter anymore with the bitter cold and the rain. Your presence is always welcome and today was no exception.

Love,
Jamie



Seriously though. Today was amazing. There is something about one of the first spring days that just makes me feel giddy. I hate the cold and the dreary skies in the winter..so it's a relief when these days start to happen. I read outside all day today and got some quality writing time & photography time in as well. Its so refreshing to crawl out of the cave from a long and bitter winter (metaphorically speaking as well). I hear others doing the same..I can hear the creak of the swing from the children next door. I hear the screams of children riding past on bikes. I hear the humming of the lawn mower in the distance. Even the birds have come out. The sun, the grass, the flowers blooming, the blue skies...they just make me feel like a new person. It motivates me..makes me want to do things..it relaxes me & brings a sort of inner peace. I smile alot too.

And now I have to go to work.. :(
But in light of working on trying to be more positive..I am just going to say..at least I got to spend the majority of the day outside. (rather than complaining about how much i hate work). Hopefully other people will be too..so that it isn't so chaotic at work!

love, love, love

I am so utterly and undeniable in love. I absolutely love him. I've never felt this way about another human being ever. I've always gotten bored with boyfriends after a few months and with him its been over 2 years and I still am so in love with him and my heart gets happy when i get to see him. I realize how much love I have for him in the smallest instances..the way I would sacrifice eating the rest of my food and give it to him because I know he's still hungry even though i know technically i could definitely..or the way I would sacrifice 2 of my days off to help him write a paper when I'd rather be reading. I've never felt like this before. I can be pretty selfish sometimes..but with him..I would do anything for him. I never knew that I was capable of this much love for someone. It scares me but excites me all at the same time.

getting better?

hmm..so work has been getting better the past few days..which is a relief as it has been unbearable most of the time. I don't know if I'm just becoming immune to it all or what..but I just don't care anymore about rude customers and annoying workmates/managers and I just didn't go home feeling like I wanted to cry the past few days..always a plus.

Easter was good. I wish that I could have gone up to my dad's house but it was too far a drive for just one day since I had to work both Saturday and Monday. I ended up going to the boyfriend's house for Easter dinner. I realized that there is no place like home for the holidays. I've had Thanksgiving and Easter at his house this past year..and I realized that I miss my own family traditions and food. I almost about died on Thanksgiving when there were no mashed potatoes. What? Really?? That's like the staple to any holiday dinner at my house. For Easter I resigned to the fact that I probably wouldn't be having mashed potatoes..and I was right..no mashed potatoes..just scalloped..which is good..but I longed for those mashed potatoes for sure. Isn't it funny how we all have our own way of doing things and have our own foods that we can count on having? I hate when it gets mixed up. I was thinking about how excited I am to start my own traditions when I get married and have a family. There will be mashed potatoes for sure.

So..I'm in my first long term relationship right now..its been over 2 years..and I love him..I do..and I know that I'm going to marry him..not now..but in time. However..there is one thing that irks me..and I know I'm not the only one..but why is it that guys don't ever make any effort once you get to a certain point? I mean..my boyfriend still does nice things for me..but when we started dating there were always those cute little surprises waiting for me and all the thoughtful gestures. Now..it's like it doesn't matter. He doesn't have to impress me..and I know that I am lucky because he really is super sweet and does do nice things for me..but I don't know..why does the really romantic and super impressing side of guys leave after a few years..I still like Prince Charming..so where the heck did he go??

let's talk about spaceships or anything..except you and me..

ok?

I've realized that I'm not creative at coming up with titles for posts whenever i've had a blog and I always end up putting a line of a song that it's in my head.

Work has been work. I'm trying not to complain about it so much because at least I have a job..right? I have to keep telling myself that a million times a day.

Yesterday I realized that my life is much like my beloved legging table at work. Let me just tell you about this table..the leggings table is the one table you do not ever want to have to fold at work because by the end of the day..there are no piles..none at all. So..yesterday..the one manager that doesn't like me..for reasons unknown..decides I should be banished to legging hell. yes..that's right..go fold the table..but not just fold the table but restock it with new sizes and try and condense piles and stuff. So I start this at like 9:45 am..I work my ass off until my lunch break at 12:15..I'm about halfway done the job at this point. This table looks amazing..this manager even compliments it..I even went through and sized them and put them in piles accordingly..which NEVER happens at the store. I had all these nice neat piles.. xs, small, small, medium, medium, large... so perfect. so wonderful. I go to lunch..and when I return 30 minutes later..there were literally no piles left..and I am not exaggerating. First..there are all in sizes..why would you need to touch anymore than the top one???? Secondly..this is my life. I try and plan things out and have in my mind a certain way that I want things to be..and in a matter of minutes people/things can destroy it ..and I'm back at square one. This may be a bit cryptic..but really..this is my life..shambles. just when I'm happy..something comes and takes it away..just when i think i know what i want to do with my life..that notion is snapped in half for some reason.

i hope i don't get the leggings table today.

you idiot!

I feel the phrase "you idiot" crosses my mind probably more often in one day at work than it has ever in my entire life. I think second on the list would be "you spoiled little bitch".. have I ever told you how much I hate working at Forever 21? I loathe it. I have never had to put up with such stupid, rude, and inconsiderate people in my life..the teenage girls and mothers alike. WOW! I could have punted about 5 different people across the room today. This one young mom (kind of white trash..ok very white trash) was SO rude to me for no reason today. (This was after already having an awful & busy hour in the fitting room under my belt.) I just wanted to throw the clothes I had in my hand (left in a heaping pile from some 16 year old bitch who clearly was incapable of putting things back on the hanger that they magically came off of)..anyways..I just wanted to throw them into this woman's face and say "I don't NEED this..I have 2 damn bachelor's degrees from 4 effing years in college & I don't need to put up with your stupid ass or any of these people for that matter all because the damn economy has to be collapsing and the only other people that want to hire a smart, educated, motivated person like me are McDonald's and the gas station around the corner". I would then storm out of that hellhole and victory would be mine.

anyways. other than work..I've been doing decent. I've been working on myself..quite the ongoing process. I recently started the 101 things in 1001 days challenge..just as a way to work on things I want to work on and do things that I want to do. I'm the sort of person that needs to write things down before I am motivated to do them. I think I honestly like the feeling of crossing something off. I feel accomplished. Much more accomplished than the stupid diplomas hanging in my room make me feel right now as I have nothing to show for them considering the fact I'm working a job i could have had in high school. How sad that a big accomplishment to me these days is remembering to take movies back to Blockbuster. woo! Go me! lol.

I promise I'm not normally this bitter or sarcastic.