I really feel like I've wasted alot of my life lately. I do nothing anymore. This is not me. It's not me at all. I don't invest in the lives of people anymore. I am so indifferent towards everything and everyone. It's not me.
I honestly feel like if I dropped off the face of the earth, there would be maybe a handful of people who actually noticed or cared. That is not how it would have been before. I had relationships with people. Now I'm a horrible friend and person in general.
I don't know how to get out of this. I really don't. I get how people give up now. I really do. You kick and fight for so long to keep your head above the water and then eventually your body fails you and you just stop. You give in because you just can't fight anymore.
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Whenever I start to feel this way.. and I have many times... I know it's depression settling in and I hate being depressed. It's so not fun. I'm glad you are thinking about how you feel and are aware of what's going on with you.... that's the first thing you have to do in order to rectify the mood!
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